The decay of a species cure this worlds will to die.

I'm grossed out and mad. At some point last night Ryder must have did #2 in his diaper. I'm a cloth diapering mama BTW. Billy obviously changed it. He put the dirty diaper in a laundry basket full of clean diapers. He didn't even flick the poo out into the toilet. He just threw the diaper in there. He knows that dirty diapers go into a wet bag, not a laundry basket. So now my diapers need to be washed again because most has poo on them. Eck.

For the record, I would like to state that I hate cilantro. I cooked with it for the first time ever last night in some cheese and bean quesadillas I made for dinner. I should have knew that it would be disgusting by the smell when I was chopping it up. I bit into my quesadilla and yuck.

What I'm listening to: Set the Stage by The Warriors.

Everything you do is a cold blade in my ribs

Since I created a new blog, I figure that I should tell a little about myself?

I'm 24 years old. I'm married {for nearly 5 years} My husband [Billy] and I have 3 kids together.

Hunter [3] He's my little guy, who is hyper but yet lazy. He has his times where he'll drive me up the wall with his non stop talking. At other times, he'll just sit and relax [or sleep]

Ryder [9 months] He is a mommy's boy all the way. He's a bright one. He's been crawling for over 3 months. He's cruising on the furniture for 2 months. He's on his way to walking.

Also there is Camille [who would be 2] She is our angel. When I was 20 weeks pregnant with her, we found out that she had a chromosome abnormality that was incompatible with life. She lived for 10 minutes after I had her on December 7, 2006.

We live in a town that I hate. I live in a town that I never imagined myself being. It's a town where I feel like I stick out like a sore thumb. I hardly go out. If I do venture around town, it's to a health food store and WM for the essentials. I hate WM but it's really the only option in this town.

I guess I'm closing this entry to an end. The little ones are getting restless and I need to go.

My titles in my blogs usually are to the lyrics of a song that I'm currently listening to.
Listening to:Blood has been Shed;Of Sand and Sulfur

i guess it's been too long. things seem to get hectic around here. my little free time these days is relaxing on the couch while sipping some green tea. yum.

We pitched the house idea out the window for now. We were told by many people at Billy's job, that the part of the town of the house were was going buy was shit. It kinda sucks not knowing the area that you are buying a house in. We decided to wait till about March to start looking again. Mainly because the union wage is going up by more than half. More money=bigger/nicer/modern house.

We might get a new vehicle tomorrow. A Ford F-150 XLT. We're not 100% sure. We may not have enough time to get it. Well I'm positive now as I'm writing this, we won't have enough time. The dealership is 2 hours away. Billy has a union meeting at 2:30.. Meeting lasts about an hour. It takes Billy an hour to get home. Dealership closes at 5. So it'll probably be a no go...

Yesterday morning I had to go to my grandma's for a bunch of complicated bullshit. Lawyers and all that jazz. It went smoothly  while I was there, thankfully. It could have been a horrible experience since one of my aunts was there and she could have made it hell. Well she may have after I left. Billy had to watch the boys while I was gone. Well he watched Ryder pretty much, since Hunter slept the entire time I was gone. I was told Ryder was fussy the entire time I was gone. He's not one to take a bottle...eh.

So I'm pretty sure we are buying a house. It scares me making that big of a commitment. What should I care though, right? I mean I'm married and have kids. Those two are huge commitments. I should just take the jump.

I've totally  been forgetting to include a funny quote from Hunter. So this one goes like this:

Hunter: BUUUUURRRRP

Me:Whoops you burped.

Hunter:No mommy, I farted out of my mouth.

Hopefully after this week things will calm down for us. 

Saturday we went and got the contract for the house we are thinking of buying. Afterwards, we went to a fair. Hunter was wanting to ride the ponies, but we ended up getting there too late. We walked around the craft fair part. There is another one on the 20th, so we told Hunter he could ride the ponies then.  Later that night Billy and I decided to get tattoos. I got a cupcake and Billy got Camille's face. I think it's awesome that he got it. I could never get her face tattooed on me...well not yet anyways. I know I'd get sad everytime I would look at the tattoo. I'm trying to figure out my next tattoo... Eck I'm addicted again. I want to get buttons. Yes, buttons. See my current poodle's name is Cupcake and my last poodle's name was Buttons. Billy laughed at the idea. My tattoo guy asked me if I wanted vanilla frosting, instead of strawberry. He said that he wouldn't have to even use any ink that way, since I am so white lol.

Yesterday we went grocery shopping. We went to my parents for a bit. Other than that, we really didn't do anything. Stuff needed to be done, but it was nice just NOT doing something. 

This morning I had to get up early to go to a bridal shop. I had to try on my bridesmaid dress and get it altered. I have to go pick it up on Thursday as well as Hunter's outfit. 

I think we finally found a house to settle on. We thought we found the perfect house a few weeks ago. It kinda was, but the pipes were covered in asbestos and it recently had mold removed. Ack. We had signed two different contracts for the place and put down earnest money. Oh well. We looked at one on Sunday that is for sale by owner. Billy went to our real estate agent and got our earnest money back. I'm not thrilled with the area we have to move to. I have to remind myself, it's not forever. It's just something we have to do for now, for Billy's sake. If not, he may fall asleep at the wheel one night. I really hope that one day we are able to settle down in the Branson area. For now I have to settle with living around people that have a different accent than me. More than likely if everything goes as planned and we 100% decide on the place, we will close towards the end of the month.

We will be having a huge yard sale. We've been packing around too much crap for about 5 years now. We need to finally get rid crap that we don't need. If we close towards the end of the month we don't have much time to pack and get rid of stuff. Hopefully I'll be able to do it between taking care of the boys and my pets.  

Since we are living in my parents extra place right now, my dad decided that he may want to sell this place. I've been helping him fix it up. I helped him stain the front deck of our place. He also did the pool, back, and he/we have the side deck to do. Today he decided that he isn't going to sell it anymore and he's going to rent it to a friend of his. My mom is totally against him moving in. Apparently she's afraid my dad may have fun and get a life? She's a little pathetic and she's going to get over it. 

Ryder recently got really bad cradle cap. I picked up something by Gentle Naturals a few days ago. The stuff is awesome and worked instantly! I so wish it was out when Hunter was a baby. He had it bad and really didn't get rid of it until he was about a year old.